it's to early in the morning to be blogging!

It's about 5am. Although I would love to go back to sleep, I find it senseless. Tim is a night owl and whenever he needs me for something it takes awhile for me to really wake up to help him with whatever he needs.

My son, Tim has Duchenne Muscular dystrophy and he does rely on me to do alot of stuff for him, including the bathroom. Although he is 20 years old, he is unfortunately now considered an invilid. Unable to do things on his own. I think this fustrates him greatly, seeing he use to do everything on his own about 10 years ago. Through the years, the diesase has stolen all that from him.

I was talking to CJ the other day about when the time came what was I to do...what is any mom to do when and if they should loose their child from a disease. I have prepared myself for years-mentally, not sure emotionally. I spent most of yesterday helping him with his last will. He actaully does not own anything, so there is nothing to go to probate if he should pass. But my concern and fear would be my mental state at the time he goes. He has been my "companion", like my "best friend", my son -here for the last 20 years. He is all I have lived for and known. And then suddenly would be "free" from it. It sort of frightens me.

For many years, i have told myself that if I ever found him gone from his sleep, I would take him in wrapped sheets and go to the woods and just die with him. Alone. Its not like anyone would notice and /or remember us anyhow. But then the last year CJ has managed to help me re-think what I can do for myself and just go out and adventure...be myself. Live. Sounds like fun-almost. But then that mental battle begins again. So now I actually find myself pre-arranging funeral plans instead of my plan A alternative. Which is positive I guess. But then i would catch myself arguing over plan A and plan B. I guess its the fear of living on without Tim.

Anyhow...to really change the subject. It's been a week since MJJ has died and now it seems like now its more about the negativity of his prescription drug abuse. I think they are really trying to tell alot of people that they are really going after people who have abused it so much, especially the celebrities. To have the DEA is now investigating and involved.

Ok...to change the subject again...lol. I'll have to come back later and see who I can featured here...another mom blog. later....feeling the sleepiness falling over me! lol

Funniest You Tube Thursday

Here is a video that is so cute and funny....the cat & the crow.





If you can't view the video, click here.

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Wednesday MOM Blogger Feature: Angie Vinez-designs

I'm excited to tell you about this blog/website. If you are anything like me, sometimes creating a unique and outstanding blog is not always the easiest. I'm slowly remembering how to do my html's and all that coding stuff. I use to do websites, etc...etc... but then due to my depression, I stopped when I lost interest in it. But it now gives me anxiety to think that I would have to try to do it on my own. So to me, it's worth the money to pay someone to do it and get it done right then to screw up and make things worse. Know what I mean?

(Shame on me!)

However, we have so many talented bloggers who are so skillful in all that they do. Not only creating beautiful backgrounds for blogs, but also the joy of knowing how to create great websites...the web designer.

I think Angie became a follower of Mom's Journey and it might be how I found her...or I ran into one of her many buttons at another bloggers sight.

If you are looking to help make your blog look really good, or you are wanting a real nice website of your own, then you can look no further. Angie Vinez designs seems to have the magic touch to make your dreams come true.

(well, there is no guarantee she can help you win the lottery)

But Angie's blog/website is not only about giving you that magical touch of webdesign, she also has alot of other goodies at her website. She also does buttons, banners, hosting, and logo's.

Oh...I can't forget the most important thing...she also sells boutique items. Amongst her web designs and boutiques, she also has reviews and give aways, gift certificates, and a few more little goodies.

So...if you are looking to review her blog/website, please stop by today and tell her that I sent you. Now mind you, I don't really know her, nor do we do business together. There are no incentives for me or any special deals (hmmmmm now there was a thought!).I just know a good website/blog when I see one and....I just like to network!

(it's a network thing!)

You can click on her button (on the left side bar here at (my) Mom's Journey Blog) and it will take you right to her webpage. I hope you will enjoy reviewing her site as much as I did.

(It's nice to be a fellow blogger!)

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It's TUESDAY TRIVIA!!

Mighty Mom guessed it correctly for last week's Tuesday Trivia. It was the infamous comedian, Jerry Lewis.

I'm thinking maybe I need to re-do my blog again. Suddenly I have all these (new) followers but hardly anyone is making comments. I hope I didn't say or do anything wrong....lol. Where everyone go?

So for Today's Trivia! Maybe my trivias are to easy for Mighty mom. She is good!! Ok...my dear fellow blogger let me see if I can find something is a little more difficult for you (and the others). B TW, I do write my own trivia's, while I researching my "victims."

Maybe I should make this a real serprise!

T U E S D A Y T R I V I A

I am not who you think I am. However I am hot more often then I want to be. I was really established in the 1500's to be a safe haven. I've been known to be cold and tempered, but healthy and fresh...that definitly called for attention. I am located up in the dar mar moutains.
I was named by the king of Portugal. Can you imagine that. I helped established one of the first school of law. I became an important intellectural, economic and political where I reside. Imigrants would come to me to help harvest our fields. In the 1930's I had to face the federal government that later led to a Constitutional Revolution, but I lost to it later. In the mid-30's, a famous professor, French anthropologist, came to my University to teach.

During the 1940's, I was known to establish a urban intervention in the transport system, which the industry became the most important economic engine. Today, I had an outstanding position in the economic world. I am the finanical heart in my southern world. I live in a tolerant world, where the environment is respected, loved, accept the diversity of enthics groups, sexuality and even tribes.

I live in a tropical area where people from all around the world comes to visit me. Where I live, has been known to to have 152 threatres and 90 museums. We also have at least 4 theme parks and actually have 39 cultural centers. There are actually over 12,000 restuarants here too. Wow, that is alot of food to eat.

So....who am I?

A Tribute to Michael J Jackson-Gone to Soon

This is my Tribute to Michael Jackson...so before you "judge" his character or even my story before you read it...read it from a whole different perpective & positiviely.

Michael Jackson was not just known for his "Thriller" or "Beat It" or even "Billie Jean" songs, but there was a humanitarian part of MJJ too. Most of his best songs are reaching out to children who were suffering in other parts of the world. However, his songs spoke from his heart and to your heart in a very special way.

He had so many songs that were not of up beat. Think of the songs he helped write and composed that really spoke from his heart and hopefully spoke to your heart. I loved the song, "We are the World" - it was a song of passion for the children of this world. Another one of his songs that really inspired me was, "Heal the World." It's amazing how much passion he puts into these songs and what his vision is when he writes and composes. This man had a heart, if not he would not been able to write such remarkable songs. Another one of his songs that reached out was: "Cry" ...and then there was "Gone to Soon" a song about young Ryan White who died of Aids. One of my favorite songs by MJJ is the one he did with the Cleveland Orchestra: " Will You be There" a movie that was also sung on the movie, "Free Willie". Remember that song?! He did so well when he interacted with the world, the different cultures. He just understood those needs. His song, "They Don't Care about Us" tells the story of how the world forgot the children of this world. He was also known for singing the "Earth Song" .... and what had become of our world. How we as man and women destroy so much with pollution, plus what we have to do deal with so many catastrophies.

Michael might had alot issues...but I'm sure emotionally he was struggling too. His song, "Man in the Mirror" really defined how we can make a change within our selves by looking deeply into our own hearts. He looked for support by others, but he always provided support to those who needed it. He really expressed this alot in his music. In his song, "Will you be there" he really spoke of his pain and of his joy. In the video...it clearly ended with an angel embraces him with her wings. This is how I hope we all can remember Michael as. Another song MJJ sang that just had a powerful message was: "Childhood" (another song from Free Willy 2). His promising supporting song, "I'll Be There" is a reminder of how much we can be there for each other, through our ups and downs, our goods and bad. (one of the best videos I've seen, but the full version of the song, click here with the Jackson 5).

Another of his remarkable songs that really he wrote that is so inspiring is: "Lost Children."

Another memorable song that he has sang that also brings alot of memory of the life of MJJ is, "Smile" ...which he was good at...smiling at life. And the many others that seem so touching..."One Day in Your Life" and "Forever."

There was something about MJJ when he sang his songs. The words, the music so inspired his heart, mostly with so much joy, it was the place that made him the most comfortable...that put him literally on his toes and dance. You can't help but feel that vibe. And he was so good at it. He was so gifted with his music and the talent to move the way he did. He might had been a good entertainer, but he was also a powerful influence. He has so much passion for his music and sharing it with the world. Everyone has an appreciation for music, in some way or form. Whatever type it maybe, but MJJ had a way to reach the hearts of his fans and they respond with love back.

People loved Michael for Michael...not because of his legal issues or how the media potrayed him as this terrible person. Michael was talented and skilled. They will find flaws in all entertainers...even in us if they wanted to. To many people focused on his flaws, his legal issues, and his child like livelihood. Michael really didn't "grow up", stuck in adolescent years. But that didn't make him less of a person. Michael was not only known for his popular songs and his moves when he danced, he also had a love for children, for their health and well-being. This is who Michael was. He was a man who had a love for the world, for his friends/family and for his fans. He was a passionate mad in spite all his differences, disagreements, and flaws.

Of course, we may not always agree or liked alot of things he did, but you know what, none of us are perfect either. What mattered most to Michael was not Michael, but his family, his fans
and how he could help make this dying world we live in a much better place.

Although he might had problems and perhaps could not even see how most of his behavior was so child like for a man his age, it seem to me he was afraid to "grow up" but at the same time, he did take responsibilities not only as an entertainer but mostly as a family man. In his own imperfect world, his desire to have his own family, his own legacy, his own privacy, and his own dignity was also what made him Michael Jackson.

This is how I remember MJJ. A man with kindness and passion for healing from within. A healing he wanted everyone to experience. A special kind of love he wanted everyone to experience. This is who MJJ was.

Some people say he is going to hell. My response is: "How can you say that? You don't know his Heart. You don't know what his heart was like with God. Only God knew that. Only God knew of Michael's spirituality. It is not for us to judge him. We don't know what his last days or even moment were with God. He might had known and made peace with God.

Michael might had danced his way into millions of hearts, but he will dance his way with his wings into heaven. And I'm sure as he dances his way, I'm sure his beautiful voice was also singing praise to God. We can only imagine.

RIP MJJ...I still believe God's hands reached out to you in so many wonderful ways!

I like to think that Ed McMahon died first so that he may greet (Farrah with her angel wings and) Michael as they enter the pearly gates ...." Heeeeeerrrrrre's Michael!!"

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Written by: Dee Bird

Copyright 2009

In Memory of....Farrah Fawcett & Michael Jackson

The devasting news of two celebrity icons has really affected me...emotionally.

I loved the Charlie's Angels. It was just an awesome 70's show. I'm sad to hear that Farrah Fawcett's battle with cancer came to an end today. I was so thrill to hear from Ryan that they would remarry possibly this week and then to sadly hear that she lost that battle. She has done so much in film and tv shows. The last year has been more personal as she shares battle and how so much we thought she would had win it.

It is just so very sad that she is now gone. I pray for her family as they deal with this terrible loss.

Now her wings carries her home...she is now one of God's beautiful angels.

Rest in Peace Farrah....you will be forever loved....& missed.

*** PLEASE DON'T FORGET TO PAUSE THE PLAYLIST AT BOTTOM OF BLOG TO HEAR VIDEO'S.***

I like to think that Farrah and Michael are singing and dancing this evening...together, while Ed McMahon annouce their arrivals with their wings.

I first heard of Michael Jackson's cardia arrest on Facebook by a fellow blogger. I was like "What??!!" I quickly turned on CNN and sure enough. Within a short period, they said what I had hope they would never say...He had died. I cried. Like Farrah, I grew up watching & hearing Michael Jackson. I remember him as a kid and his brothers, even when Janet was little. He had many wonderful songs.

I know he had alot of legal issues. He seem to be stuck in his adolocent boyhood. When he became a father, I had hope that would shape him to be a real man and I know by being a father, in many ways he might had changed him.

I ache for the family and his fans. I know now he will no longer suffer whatever it was he was suffering from inside....emotionally, mentally and physically. I ache for his beautiful children. I hope they grow up knowing their dad did love and care for them.

Rest in Peace Michael....I pray and hope your heart was where you wanted it to be...with God. The King of Pop...your voice has been silenced here on earth...but I'm sure it will be full of praise above.

You will be forever loved....& miss.

If you have paused the playlist below to hear the video's , you may unpause it to hear some of Michael's songs that has been added to the playlist.

Jon and Kate plus 8...and TLC

So....all this media attention about the Gosslins have really hit the media fesnic. Honestly, it is getting old, but sad.

I knew for some reason this seperation or/and divoice was going to happen. Although I am a fan of the show, there were many times I just stopped watching it. Frankly I was tired of her verbal and emotional abuse towards Jon. She was to much of a control freak. She was just to bossy. She had a way to humiliate him, not only in front of their children, but also in front of family, friends and in front of millions of people. She didn't care. If she did, she would had stopped that behavior but she only got worse. I don't know how he tolerated it that long.

I feel she brought all this upon her self by own behaviors/actions. I don't think she really realized the words she spoke (and still speaks) of him is hurting him and even the children. She may trying to hide it from the kids now, but someday they will see all these tapes and they will see why Dad really left. Not because of them...but because of her. She pushed him away. She chased him away. She did all this on her own by HER behaviors (and words).

I also understood why her brother and sister-in-law is finally speaking up to the fact that Kate continues to "exploit" the kids even when Jon clearly said he didn't want to do it anymore. In his one interview, it sound like to me (but I can be wrong) that she chose his career for him by letting TLC coming in to air the show. What happened to the business he was starting, his work in software programming.

I sort of also blame TLC too. The fact that they aired all this and allowed it to happen tells me that the producers of TLC was more so a contributing factor of this divoice. I know they don't want to stand up to the plate and take responsiblity but they should. They really should. When they saw all this happening, they should had put the show on hold until the couple worked things out -get marital help. But no, they didn't. they contributed towards it by allowing it to happen and continue to air it. They seen it...they heard it...they knew it was happening.


Of course, Jon was not a big help...even if I support him and his decision. He continued to let it happen instead of wearing the pants and telling her she needs to just stop. In fact, you know what, I take that back... I think he has a number of times. I remember hearing him talk about it a while back. But I am proud of him for finally standing up, and putting a stop to the abuse. It took him way to long, but its about time! But the fact that he will not longer tolerate it and need to disconnect himself from it shows his courage to make things right for himself. As far as the "Affair" I don't know if to believe that or not. I think there are a lot of misunderstandings or miscommunications and I think the media is making something out of nothing. I believe he took time to be with friends female or male but he had that right... to have a social life. Why not? She was gone alot and he gave up his job to be with his family. So what he has a social life. But the media should mind thier own damn business and leave this family alone and let them work things out.


Although it is sad about the divoice, I think it is the right thing for his sanity. I don't buy anything that she say's. She is an attention getter. She is making it about her. I think she is also making up alot of BS about him and his "Behaviors"...which is??? She wants people to feel sorry for her. Well I don't. I was very tired of her abusive behavior towards him. And lately she has been releasing her anger out on the kids.

I know many people may not agree with me or like what I have said. That is fine. Everyone is to their own opinon and I respect that. Oh I can say more...but I won't. I'm curious to what you all think about this. I would like to hear your views and opinions.

Do you think TLC is in the right by continuing to air new shows knowing what the show mostly did to the Gosslins marriage? Do you feel that TLC is a contributing factor to the break up of the marriage or do you thing the Gosslins did it on their own?