The Truth to be revealed

I woke up with this terrible fear of something bad about ready to happen.  I don't know how else to explain it.  Suddeny my PTSD went into action and I began to have flash backs of an incident from 2008 in Orlando at the Florida Hospital.   It was tragedy that shouldn't never happened and yet sadly someone had to take a blame for something that Florida hospital employees should had been blamed for. 

Many years ago, I was a patient at FH CBH - its a cold place.  It's staff are cruel and heartless and very provokable.  I've seen them act like this, not only to me but to many other patients.   then in October 2008, it happened.  I wasn't there, but from the stories I heard from the people there and what was on the news, I knew immediately what happened.   A patient was provoked by Kevin, one of the techs.  Same guy who likes to provoke everyone else.   When a patient is asking for help and needs something and you intentionally put them off constantly instead of helping them, it does get under your skin and it does cause you to feel "violent" towards that person.  I know there were days I wish to jump on those guys and a few nurses because they are just cruel and mean.  Sometimes I think they have to much power.  Sometimes I think they are God and sometimes they think they are right now matter how wrong they are.   I can simply testify to this. I've been there and got that treatment and I know many others who have too. 

Whatever it was, this patient got pissed off at that tech and started a fight.  Maybe it was deserved to that tech.  However, when an RN try to stop the fight, unfortunately he was seriously injured that later led to his death.   I'm not blamming the RN. He was a nurse of mine and is the sweetest guy and easy to talk to. he was also a very good looking man and didn't look his age at all.  But he did what was right and try to stop it but it cost him his life.   However, i don't want to blame the patient either.  The fight wouldn't had started if the tech would just atteneded to this patient.  Instead he continued to not only "ignor" him but provoked him.  The tech caused the patient to be upset and caused a conflict.

It had NOTHING to do with his illness.  It had to do with the staff who would not attend the patients needs. I'm sure the patient asked for help all day too.  Hey I've been there when you keep asking and you keep get ignored.  

Fortuantely, the judge later found the patient NOT GUILTY but "insane".   Well, he wasn't guilty anyhow, no matter what.  The people who should be blamed for this nuses death was his own fellow employees.   I can name them all too.  This nurse didn't have to die.  He shouldn't had died.   But I believe the patient was defending himself from all these "insane nurses/techs"  (not the one who died though).   Unfortuantely, the patient is now spending his life in a facility unnecessarily.   IF the techs would had just done their jobs and helped him when asked, none of this would had happpend. 

So all I have to say to those employees of FH CBH- you all are liars!  you blamed this man for something that is your own fault by default!!    You couldn't take responsibility of your own action and  YOU GOT AWAY WITH MURDER.   One day...it will bite you in the ass and you will burn in hell.   

This man was attacked by YOU all and someone died because of YOU!!!!   not by this man! 

Well I have to go....but I can assure you the truth will be revealed! 

Christmas

Wow!! I didn't realize it has been that lonnnnnnng since I posted something here.  Sorry about that!  LOL  

It has been sort of an eventful month.  I can't remember it all except the amount of time I've had to sleep alot...its the depreesion.

Oh! Oh! CJ- my therapist who was "fired" 2 months ago, is starting her own "practice" by doing LIFE SKILLS COACHING starting next month.  She is just waiting her her lisensce to come in and we are working on her business cards/logos right now.   But she starts at the beginning of 2011.   I look forward to that session.  So if you live in North Central Florida (Gainesville FL area)...let me know and I'll be glad to refer you to her. 

We had a good xmas yesterday.  My sister, Donna and her family came up.  We had a good dinner and then open gifts and then soon after they left back to Orlando area. 

Right now...I'm just so tired I want to sleep. I have been addicted to the new game Facebook has- Cityville. I've been ignorning my Farmsville. LOL   Crazy old me! 

So want to wish everyone Happy Holidays! have a safe one.  See ya in a few days.

its just a toothache!

Ahhh!! What a week!  Spent most of the week on the phone trying to resolve alot of the issues for Tim's medical needs and plus trying to make sure things will work out for the Child Support and Tim's trust special needs account. I think I got it all resolved.  I think!  I pray at least it is all resolved. 

I've been sort of depress...so I've spent most of the week in bed sleeping and/or online but just not interested.  I don't know why or where that came from.  

The last couple days I've had a terrible tooth ache.  No matter what I did, it still hurts. 
I've also managed to get Tim to put money in Tim's account so that all his bills are paid off.   I think we might have extra money...enough to get stuff you can't buy off of food stamps. you know TP, paper towers, laundry soap, stuff like that.   and maybe we might have extra. so you know I'll be visiting the dollar store.

I know I have things to say but right now this tooth ache and feeling sleepy is getting to me.  So maybe I'll be back later!