The Journey to the Operating Room

Surgery.  Surgery.  I have never had surgery before. I have never been under before.  So...now I just don't know what to expect.   For a while I was having anxiety- thinking that I would be dreaming and the fear of my many nightmares would appear and that I would not be able to awake from it.  But people keep telling me that you don't dream.  Your out and then you are back.  Hey I would like to at least entertain myself and dream, right?!  

In a few hours, I shower, pack the last few things. Spend some time with Tim. Leave some additional information with the nurses, stop by to pay some bills and then I'll jump on the bus and ride to the hospital. Doesn't seem so scary, does it? 

I guess if I survive this, I'll have to write about it, ha?  the joy of journaling or blogging.  Sharing your experience. Whether the news is good or bad- its the experience, that journey that you journal about and hopeful through it, learn some new lessons.   

I don't know what will happen tomarrow.  I don't know how my body will react to all of this.  I don't know if I'll ever wake up. I don't know if I'll ever see any of my friends or family again.  I just know that I need to make sure that my heart is right with God. I need to make sure I have my peace with Him.   And in some way or form, trust that our family will take good loving care of Tim. By the way- I was suppose to have my Last Will & testament done today (really last week) and procrastinate- again! Maybe I should do something quickly-not sure if it will still be good not notarized but hey its MY WORDS, right? Its my thoughts. Its my opinions.  Its my rights.

Tonight...two mormons showed up at my door as "missionaries"...well we got into a good discussion until they brought something up and then I flipped!  Its was NO WAY!! the Bible does NOT teach that. It never happened.   They honestly believed Jesus came back from heaven after His crucification to teach the people in the Americas.   Really?  Are you sure about that.  I have never heard that before and really believed it to be the brainwashing thinking and whoever taught them is DEAD WRONG.   That did not happen.  Again- a false prophet.  i was upset about it for about a hour.  Then I just let it go when I couldnt even find it on their website.  I know its not true. I know it didn't happen and I know what the Bible teaches us.  Sickening. I would NEVEr join that church. Brainwashing.  

Well folks.  I can go on and on...but I won't bore you.  (LOL)  I hope to be back to tell you about my jouney in the operating room.  And if I had my pizza party. 

I wish you well and prosper.  I pray God will lead and guide you and help you with the choices that we make every day.  He leadeth us.  He guides us.  He loves us.  He-our Heavenly Father.  Yes...even you CJ!!

Safe Hugz,
Dee

PS when I get back, I hope to write on " The Christian & the Athiest!"    It will be quite a story.

Happy Journey!