It's all Good...I think!

I have not been well lately...still having a terrible time eating. This surgery I think did almost more damange than good.  

But its just not that....there so many things adding up that is just physically, mentally, emotinally getting to me. First it was the Child Support...Florida loosing my money finding it then returning it to Maryland and slowly getting to come back.  Can you believe how long I had to wait for that?   Then the ugly stupid Gov. Rick Scott who needs to be shot!!  God, he really makes me sick!  Now the cancellation of ABC daytime soaps are being cancelled.   Ohhhh I can't forget that Medcaid has me on the share of cost-medical needy program where they expect me to pay out $734 in medical expenses out of my pocket when my income is only $934 a month.  IF I pay our 734 how am I suppose to pay my rent? my utilities? my food? my van?

So I had to cancel my physical therapy appointment cuz they wanted me to pay $35 today. Well I don't even have $20 in my account.  So I had to also cancel my pain manament and arthritis appointment cuz I don't have money for that either. I'm so damn broke!   I hate it!   hate it!  (did I say I hate it!) 

I just can't beleive that ABC Brian Frons stoops so low to cancell All My Children and One Life to Live and claims that we don't want soaps but reality show.  What does that man know about what we want.  Who says we don't want soaps?? Did he hear that from us???  NO!!!! he is such a freaking liar!!    LOL one of the former OLTL soaps stars says everything dies that he tries to run, its like he is  a serial killer.  Then I heard he is in some security protection  cuz he fears his life cuz of this cancellation.  R O F L M A O! OMG such drama!    Is he serious?   IT must be cuz he knows that he has lied to us and had to run before caught with the truth.   dumbass!  idiot!    must be a gop republican....a corrupted one at that. lol 

Anyhow...so now I'm eating baby food and smoothies anything that is soft and easy to eat cuz everytime I eat...lol...feels like I swallowed a bowling ball.  Hurts so bad, then my back hurts. I still can't sit long cuz then I swell, hurt and so I try to lay down and rest....and I can't sleep cuz of the pain so I try to sleep with out the pain pill and only when I know the pain is a 10 will I really take a pain pill.    I've been like...Grin & bare it!   Thank god for the HOT showers.

I did go to CJ's yesterday and laid in her jacquizzi tub. That helped.  

So now with maxim, Tim's nurses.  No nurses for tomarrow, Saturday night and for Sunday.  Can you believe for 3 shifts straight I have no nurses and I"m not suppose to lift Tim!!   So I wonder if the cute firefighters will come over....Woooohooooo!  chunky chunky  hehehehehhehehe  

Drinks up...another smoothie for me!  later folks have a good weekend!   happy happy happy happy